Parallel

Long time no see guys,

It’s been so long 'till I can’t get recognize who I am, I walk alone, making so many mistakes, I found myself in a parallel life, seems like I am at the point of no return, some voices inside me telling me that I must be strong.

Once I figured it out, I was here and something has happened out of my control, it seems like I can't see everything happen around me, start to freak me out, I can’t feel, I have too much locked myself, lock my heart, seems like I lived in a prison of my mind, I can't control myself, keeps flowing out, I saw it happen, I was there, but I can do nothing about it.

Should I wait or should I walk? I know this sounds crazy, I don’t live my life? Then what am I doing here?

Something bothered me that in this clumsiness i found there are so many unpredictable things happen and all I can do is watch, so I ask myself whoever I am since I no longer rule on me, I have lived outside of me that I don't realize it 'till then.

While this anxiety won't castaway from me, and I’m a friend of it, so I’m laughing at it, and it keeps playing me on, the biggest part in my heart now is a space, keeps staring at me like I'm a criminal. 

So I come now, I walk with my faith, that something bigger are waiting for me, i must keep walking, be not hesitate myself for I know that God is before me.

I cherish myself all the time, which my help is from God.

Salam,

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